Amazed
When I started my posts about my past I didn't expect the response I received. I knew other people had trouble. I made friends in high school with some of the kids whom were also bullied. I guess it was our common ground. I did find that it did not prevent us from bulling each other. Now I can't say that I can recall purposely making some one feel bad about themselves, but I may have. If I did it to you and you are reading please know it was never intentional. I NEVER wanted anyone to feel the way I felt. No one should go home and cry everyday. It just is not right. I can recall my mom crying, because as a mom you never want to see your babies hurt.
I can't begin to explain how good it felt to let out the truth. All this started because I have sat for months dwelling on the fact of all the bullies that I had in my life, ONE took the time 15 years later to say sorry. She had the courage to "man up." Not all my bullies were female, I had plenty of male bullies too, the one who attempted to set my hair on fire was male. That time though I have to fault the 30-40 other witnesses who did not even try to find a teacher to stop it because it was done "as a joke." That was never funny to me. I thank that person for taking responsibility. I did have one a long time ago take responsibility for their part in my experiences. It was nice to hear the truth even if it had been 4 years later. For some reason this most recent confession meant more. Just proves it is never too late.
I have to say it saddened me to hear that things are not better for children these days even with all the media attention given to being bullied. I can't watch a children's channel without seeing a PSA about bullies in school. If things are not done by the administration of the schools none of the media coverage works. I have worked in a school I know things can be chaotic in the halls. I also know it takes one teacher in the halls between classes.
I do know from my personal experience that you can put all the people in the world in the hall, they will find ways to still torment their target. Why in today's world all they have to do is build a web page.
As a mom I have already decided I will be watching her internet use. I will be watching not just for things said about her, but what she might be saying about her peers. I worry, perhaps my experience makes me worry more than I should, even with her only being 6. My child though is on the younger end of her class due to her birthday being in August. I know that often makes for an easier target, I work however on giving her the tools I thought I lacked.
I want to say the stories shared with me touched me. Thank you for sharing them.
I can't begin to explain how good it felt to let out the truth. All this started because I have sat for months dwelling on the fact of all the bullies that I had in my life, ONE took the time 15 years later to say sorry. She had the courage to "man up." Not all my bullies were female, I had plenty of male bullies too, the one who attempted to set my hair on fire was male. That time though I have to fault the 30-40 other witnesses who did not even try to find a teacher to stop it because it was done "as a joke." That was never funny to me. I thank that person for taking responsibility. I did have one a long time ago take responsibility for their part in my experiences. It was nice to hear the truth even if it had been 4 years later. For some reason this most recent confession meant more. Just proves it is never too late.
I have to say it saddened me to hear that things are not better for children these days even with all the media attention given to being bullied. I can't watch a children's channel without seeing a PSA about bullies in school. If things are not done by the administration of the schools none of the media coverage works. I have worked in a school I know things can be chaotic in the halls. I also know it takes one teacher in the halls between classes.
I do know from my personal experience that you can put all the people in the world in the hall, they will find ways to still torment their target. Why in today's world all they have to do is build a web page.
As a mom I have already decided I will be watching her internet use. I will be watching not just for things said about her, but what she might be saying about her peers. I worry, perhaps my experience makes me worry more than I should, even with her only being 6. My child though is on the younger end of her class due to her birthday being in August. I know that often makes for an easier target, I work however on giving her the tools I thought I lacked.
I want to say the stories shared with me touched me. Thank you for sharing them.
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